I have a weakness that will eventually be the death of me… I love and care about a lot of people… Some of these people I’m afraid to lose, some I’ve already lost. I can’t look a person in the eye or see them at a public place knowing that I lost them & acting like nothing is wrong… The truth is I’d rather have these people in my life all the time. The people that have given me strength, the people that have given me good times and stuck by me through the dark times. I’m not a cold hearted asshole. I’m a soft hearted pussy, who probably would lose his mind being alone. I know it’s not how I should live my life but that’s how I am. There’s no questioning it. I’m an angry, sad person most of the time. It’s hard to appreciate what I have when with the way I’m feeling, I’d rather be amongst the less fortunate. I’d rather be amongst them because they are more appreciative of life & more modest. I’m an average guy who has low self esteem & strives to be this big deal. I love music. I wanna’ be known for it. But at the end of the day, I’ll still be feeling the same way… The way I figure it… There’s nothing wrong with this. I’ll just keep unconditionally loving & caring about all of these people… because that’s who I am… My weakness is the people I love & care about.